Feelings

I would very want to hold you close to me and tell you "I love you, dont leave me" .... but that would only make matters worse ... sigh ..... the nature of humans are selfish, wanting something at the cost of hurting others in the process. Im trying to be different, hence hurting myself always and hoping for others to be happy.

Dissapointed

Wow, sometimes i wonder sia ... People are more concern on why u delete them on facebook rather then how are you at the moment =/ sigh ...

Will

If anything were to happen to me , I have left my will in my laptop. Its right on the desktop which you guys wont miss. Eventhough my assets aint much, Ive distributed whatever i own in there. =)

Ignored

I wonder ... nvm .. is nothing -.-

Being white sucks ~

While trying to be good, you always try to put up a smile , keeping everything inside even when u have to repeatedly listen to things which both annoy and make you sad. Even worse is when ur repeatedly requested to anwser something which will make you sad ... No matter how , always u tot of whats best and pushed ur limits ... Eventually, your been pushed aside, wings broken and heart shattered. Its never easy to regain the believes which one once lost ... especially when the hopes were not measured by figures .... sigh ....

Valentines Day

Every year , i spend this day hang out with friends, chatting and joking about other couples and rumors ... However, this year im shedding tears while hugging boink boink in my room ... Just dont feel like going out ... Sigh ....

Rainy Day

EVenthough is Chinese New Year when people are celebrating and being happy, im here alone ... Sad and Depressed ... Crying every moment ..

Harsh Words

Sigh , words are painful , indeed when u hear a person says , nobody wants me at also ... and u have endured such painful times for so long ...

Hard to hold it in

It hurts such much thats is hard to hold all the feelings in ... I am also scared of falling asleep .... sigh ..

Importance

I wonder am i even important anymore ... sigh .... always ignored and left out ....

Everytime i waited for hours, and when ur free u tell me u wanna sleep already .... sigh ... cant talk or play less a few minutes and spare me ?

Top 10 Ways of Getting Your Boyfriend To Marry You

1. Have him meet your parents (100%)
2. Cook for him a lot (80.6%)
3. Tell him you want to get married by a certain age (73.8%)
4. Keep talking about the happy marriages your friends enjoy (57.3%)
5. Go to a “bridal fair” (44.7%) [an exhibition wedding held by marriage venues]
6. Propose (41.7%)
7. Talk about what you’d do after you have children (39.8%)
8. Go with him to look at rings (37.9%)
9. Go with him to look at furniture (34%)
10. Secretly enlist the aid of his parents (28.2%)

Sad > Happy

People ask me why do i look moody or tired, all i could say is smile back and say should i be happy ?

Timing ?

Always , when i wanted to be cared the most , i get ignored .... Maybe is just my timing is always at the worse of times. Always getting through it a forcing a smile eventually ....

Nothing to look forward to

What i wanted was for u to fetch me, not by others ... Pity didnt take the hint ....

Lost

I really dont wanna it to happen , but i also dont know how to make you happy .... What should i do ?

Sad

Really wanting to call , but i wont ... You nid ur sleep for ur health aint too good.